Oh wait. It’s only Tuesday….

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Cause she’s a mean bitch.

Coming to you live, from the pits of despair, it’s me. I’m currently sitting on my couch, in my jammies, covered in coconut oil with wet hair back in a tight bun, listening to classical music (I was reading before I decided to go on a rant). Puppy is staying with me — she’s curled up soundly near my door. Protecting her bone. She’ll occasionally get up and stretch, reposition. Always heaving a heavy sigh….okay, now I’m getting distracted.

I was thinking the other day how much I’ve changed. Even from just a year ago. I feel like I have experienced SO many things this year. It’s overwhelming. It’s exhausting. I don’t know how to manage sometimes. I was thinking of how proud I am of myself (i think?)…I’ve become healthier, fitter, more in-tune with how I relate to the world and how my intentions can cultivate my reality. I’ve been fairly good at feeling good and excited about my life and where I’m heading.

With all that said, I’m BLOWN away by how insanely mean I can be to myself. I was confessing my downward spiral to a friend and she admitted she’s felt the same things I have. Why do we gotta be this way? I’m just telling myself that one day I’ll be dead and all this stuff won’t really matter, so might as well try and make the best of it and have fun, right?

Anywho, in an attempt to lighten my mood, I spent a good amount of time reading Alexi Wasser’s blind leading the blind. Here are some of my faves:

4. if you always sit in front of your laptop with photo booth open, you’re never really alone.

2. when you’re stressing out cuz your latest crush or object of your affection is not texting you, REMEMBER, there are a SLEW of other men who also have your phone number who are also not texting you.

5. life is just like a really long GIF, ya know?

9. at the end of ‘lost in translation’, when bill murray whispers into scarlet johanson’s ear and you can’t hear what he says… i found out he said this “well, i have to be going now. but i’m not going to let that come between us.”  this isn’t advice, but it may fill a void.

25. Always be in the bathtub. Metaphorically speaking. #stateofmind #wayoflife (opps, I read that wrong. thought it said always look like you’ve just gotten OUT of the bathtub)

K. Love you.

Yes, you. (and by you, I’m also referring to myself…)